AllahuyaAllah

Assalamualaikum

Allah, You may take my happiness away if that is the best for me.
Allah, You may take my wealth away if that is the best for me.
Allah, You may take my health away if that is the best for me.
Allah, You may take my smiles away if that is the best for me.
Allah, You may take everything from me
but please take me FIRST before You take my parents
please take me FIRST before You take my broher
and please take me FIRST before I break my parents hope for me.

coz Allah, I cannot live without them,
without Umi Ayah and Abang, I'm nothing.
without them I'm not who I am now.
and of course without Your sifat "Maha Bijaksana"
I won't be here with them who I love the most.

and Allah, I cannot bear to break their hearts,
I cannot bear to break their hopes on me.
I cannot bear to see my parents crying because of me.
because of who I am in the future.

Allah, please show me the way,
to at least make my parents proud of me,
just exactly like my brother did.
Yup! my brother is the one I admire the most.
He is the best epitome of goodness
besides umiayah and Rasulullah S.A.W.

and again Allah,
I'm sorry for wanting too much from You,
but Allah,
You are the only hope I've got.
You're the only ONE that always hear my problems,
see my tears, andd wipe it when You gave me the strength that I prayed for.

Allah, for all Your kindness,
I'm trying to be a better muslimah ya Allah.
I'm trying hard to be a good listener to others who needs it.
I'm trying to be a better khalifah.
andd I'm trying to gain Your love AllahuyaAllah.


aminnnn.

again,
Alhamdulillah, thank You YaRabb:')